so i think i figured out my flaw...

I can't handle not having answers...not in the sense of like the future..(I actually enjoy not knowing what will happen...) but I mean in the way of comprehending a situation. I think I have been so internally afraid to come home because I knew it brought me much closer to having a run in with him...

and of course I let a friend talk me into going out last night and I of course see him. Normally I would have just talked to him anyway...but I'm so hurt by one sentence he said that I couldn't even open my mouth....

plus i honestly believe deep down that he needs to try and make it better..and a hug isn't enough to do it...nothin physical will make it better....only two words can...

..."I'm sorry"

the Sartor

Hey Hey

So, I'm sitting in Philly's airport right now, reflecting on my experiences in San Francisco thus far...(i feel like I'm back in undergrad with my late night/early morning philosphy...lol) My experience is to be somewhat expected as far as the W curve goes. I came in very excited....but the first month or so after I was ther eI had to go through a lot of changes to adjust....making friends, finding my balance, etc....and I'm just starting to feel set up, around this time of my break...

So, it's been a good experience over all. I've known, even through all the down time that I made the right decision. I mean I had small doubts when I was having trouble juggling things, but the level at which I finished my classes and my final projects has given me confidence that I am definitely someone with talent in the field I have chosen, and I am also confident that the Academy will assist me in finding the level of professionalism and taste that I need to carry into the working world.

Also, I feel emotionally comfortable in San Fran..the social climate there is one that I can get down on...everything is so chill there...its' nice...it helps me balance out my stress levels..I don't fret as much and I like it....the only downfall to the relaxed way of life is that the club scene is not what I'm used to....San Franciscans don't know how to club like we do on the East Coast..but that's what Vacations are for..lol..

Anyhow, overall, I'm happy with it, and after much rest, I am excited to head back....

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the Sartor..

p.s. I'l include pics of my work, or links at least when I get it back next semester!!

Wings

...lol, so, I haven't posted in a long time..but I had to share my new found obsession...I want to make a pair of angel wings..lol

I just watched the 2008 Victoria's Secret Fashion Show, and it has re-sparked my love of the wings...of course..

So, I'm already plotting to do an elaborate Halloween Costume...(which I have no idea where I can go with Wings..lol, but I'll make it happen. Anyhow, I want to do a gladiator angel so of look..I think it will be hot if I can pull it off. I'm going to play with faux leather for the harness and a midpiece...and do a rustic look with gold metallic finishes...I figure it will help me learn a lot of new techniques as well..so it'll be fun...time to start saving up..lol

anyhow, I hope everyone is well!
the sartor..